Sunday, April 22, 2012

Crawl...Walk...Fall...Walk Again


A baby learn to walk is no easy feat. It will start with a small steps, small and uneasy steps. The gait is waddling, the toes are in-curling. There will be numerous falls and bumps. Numerous bruises on forehead, scratches over limbs and endless cries. Given enough time and practice, small steps become big steps, uneasy become steady, then there is no more falling down, Walking become the second nature.

Isn't it the same with life? House officers learn from experience, numerous failures, many ups and downs, to become a safe doctor, and a better person?

New ruling created by the day to help these 'underpriviledged' group of people. First come the rule of house officers not allowed to follow in ambulance. Then came the shift work system to cut back the working time to 60 hours. Now there are hospitals that won't allow them to clerk case and examine patients! Looking at all these rules, it follows after certain events.

First, there were an incident of a house officer in Melaka Hospital involved in road traffic accidents while transporting patients. While we cannot predict the future, shit does happens to anyone. I witnessed a case of a staff nurse sustained a fracture of the radius bone while transporting a pregnant mother to general hospital for delivery because the new ambulance driver hit on a wild boar and the ambulance go turtle. Do we bar the nurses from sending patient? Certainly not! While I cannot say the ambulance is the safest ride home, even a fully registered doctors like us cannot prevent any untoward things to occur.

Then, house officers complaining of long working hours in the hospital. Hospital basically become the second home. There is no social life, love life or party life next to working. Then came the shift work implementations. Initially was full of glitches, but thing smoothed out in the end. The draw back is the oncall claims was with held. Then complaints starts again become there is not enough money to cover the car installment and side expenses, so another 600 bucks given on top of the shift work. What they didn't realized that without the adequate exposure, there is simply a disaster in the making. Not only more officers will be extended for the lack of skills and knowledge, they will be less equipped when sent to places that has no senior people to back up. The situation is similar in most of the government hospitals.

Are we doing them any good? Ask yourself, in years to come, will you want to go to any government doctors when you fall sick? If the answer is no, then please review the system again. For me, to be a great person, one have to fall many times, then when he stand up one day, he will be standing up tall. The scar is to mark how resilient you are, and prove to the world that you are not a weak doctor! 

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Rising of The Phoenix

I don't like to write about advice. In fact, I am poor at teaching people, guiding them. There are a handful of juniors under me that seems to have not benefited anything at all after they left from my department. I just like story-telling, narrating of the whole event, from the beginning to the end. 

I was sitting by the beach, eagerly waiting for the sunrise. It was a long time that I didn't find my 'inner peace'. Despite they said I am fortunate to live in this town that has beautiful beaches, scenic mountains, and a peaceful river carved the beauty of this small town, but I didn't see it. The sound of the waves hitting on the white sands attracts tourist from far far away, but I didn't hear it. The coolness of the rushing waterfall on the skin that washes away all the troubles, but I didn't feel it. These few years I had been severely disconnected to the environment.

Watching a sunrise is a good chance to think about our life. Every sunrise is like a hurdle in life. It gets dramatic in the early part, and became very hot and difficult to manage during its peak and when the sun settle to the west, so does the problems. With time, things will work their ways. When a new day starts, the cycle repeats again. There is not a day without sunrise, nor a day without sunset. Similarly, there is no life without problems, nor solutions to every problems.

I am making comparing this to my education. When I first step into the primary school, I were so elated. When the happiness wears off, left with hard facts of life. Homework, co-curricular activities and exams... Then came the UPSR examination. The hard work put into preparing the exam till I faced head on with the exam. Finally, I passed the examination and moved on to secondary school and the vicious cycle repeats itself, again. Fast forward till now. I had just crept out of my comfort zone as I have been accepted into Masters degree program in internal medicine. And its all rise and shine again. Time to wake up!

Sunday, April 1, 2012

KongMing Lantern







Saw this KongMing lantern today. If you never see one, it is a sight to behold. A seems to be very simple mechanism brilliantly brings a lantern up in the sky. What is more surprising is the design was made way back in the ancient Chinese, by non other than the brilliant Sir ZhuGe KongMing.

Its basically a tightly sealed lantern, exposing the bottom end. The fuel of the lantern will create a hot air inside the lantern, expanding it, and bring it airborne. Used in ancient war time to pass messages, now Chinese use it for prayers, writing the wishes on the lantern and hopefully it brings the message to the heavenly place.

Simple, but brilliant.

路上行人欲断魂

破晓
神明

妖魔

幽灵

狱火

诚心
扫墓


 世界上真的有天堂、地狱吗?
人死了,又会到另一个世界吗?还是一切归于乌有?
难于理解